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In the middle of the desert you can say anything you want

01 Jul 2017

Если ты сядешь, бабушка тебе Гешихте расскажет!

286 words, ~1 min read

// нашел у себя в черновиках, написано около месяца тому.

В автобусе, потихоньку приближаемся к немецко-польской границе. Делаю все, чтоб писать диплом. Тошнит ужасно. Интернет советует, что если тошнит, то нельзя читать. Ха.

Очень радует мальчик, который сидит за мной. Лет 6. Моя полная копия в этом возрасте. Очаровательнейший немецко-русский суржик, у него и родителей, бабушки. Она пытается его развлекать, рисует картиночки, потом все угадывают, что это такое.

Это так классно, Господи.

— Будешь Айер?

У мамы явно муж прям немецкий немец, часто ему звонит, спрашивает, начал ли он уже о ней скучать.

Около-эмиграция это серьезно самый простой способ РЕЗКО сделать себе жизнь интереснее, навсегда. По моим наблюдениям и беседами с людьми, обычно это немного поломанные люди. Билингвизм и смена культур очень обогащает, но мне кажется, что гармония, которую дает относительно целостная социокультурная оболочка/матрица, тоже невероятно важна. Не буду излишне сильно уходить в эволюционную психологию и все такое, но излишне много путешествовать и сталкиваться с разными культурами человечество стало относительно недавно (шестое столетие до нашей эры?). Я могу себе представить что четкое ощущение ingroups/outgroups и принадлежания-чему-то-там нам немного более важны, чем плюшки, которые дает обрывание корней и сталкивания с совершенно другими реалиями.

НО это не относится к путешествиям! Как мы помним,

“Travel is fatal to prejudice, bigotry, and narrow-mindedness, and many of our people need it sorely on these accounts. Broad, wholesome, charitable views of men and things cannot be acquired by vegetating in one little corner of the earth all one’s lifetime.” (Twain)

Формула для счастья и успеха по жизни, в моем мире, это были бы периодические путешествия на пару месяцев-полгода, с целью максимум понаблюдать/понять, но в то же время с четким осознанием, что дом у тебя где-то есть, и что тебе есть, куда возвращаться

25 Apr 2017

A translation of "Переведіть мене через майдан"/"Переведи меня через майдан"

1290 words, ~5 min read

Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan?
(the last wish of the old kobzar1)

“Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan2
To the far side, there is a field,  I reckon
The bees hum quietly, a little piece of heaven
Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan

Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan
Where there’s laughter, fighting, feasts and food on shelves 3
Where no one hears, neither me nor themselves
Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan

Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan
There cries a woman; in the past we were together 4
Now I’ll walk past, won’t even recognize her
Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan

Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan
With pain, regrets and love, still not forgotten
Here I’ve been brave, and here I have been rotten 5
Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan

Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan
The drunken clouds, they seem to touch my arm 6
Now it’s my son who sings on the Maidan
Please, would you help me crossing the Maidan 7

Please, help…” The Maidan took him in
and led him by the hand,  and he kept walking
As he fell dead, right in the Maidan center
Not knowing there was no field anymore


Excellent thoughts about this poem and its translations are here, in Russian, and here’s another absolutely excellent Russian article where I first found the sad story of the kobzars.

This started like it usually does , by seeing a painfully literal traslation of this poem in English and wishing to play a bit with rhymes (my translation of “February” by Pasternak started similarly). It took me about two hours on my smartphone in bed when I couldn’t sleep, and there are quite a lot of rough edges. I’d like to fix the last part, adding at least some rhymes (something with “before” in the third line?), removing the “Maidan” in the second-to-last, which would allow me to remove the “arm”, and lastly — yes, the SHELVES, my God. Lastly, English pronunciation is hard and I don’t have an intuition for it. This is what happens when you pick up most of your English from IRC.

To understand this poem, two crucial words are “Maidan” and “Kobzar”.

Maidan is a word that’s almost untranslateable from Ukrainian, it’s too deeply ingrained in the Ukrainian culture and mentality. “City square”, “Main square” doesn’t quite cover it, much too narrow and much too meaningless. In every Ukrainian town, at leats traditionally, there’s a Maidan. It’s the heart of the city, it’s where the people gather to sort problems out, where marriages-fights-celebrations happen. Having an important central square is nothing new, but in the Ukrainian mentality it is a much more loaded term.

Kobzars were, basically, blind intinerant street musicians, but culturally, again, much more than that. In the 17-19th centuries they were a common sight in Ukrainian towns. Almost exclusively blind, they traveled from town to town, singing folk songs and so called “dumas” (literally translated – “thougths”), which are epics sung in recitative. They usually played kobzas, banduras or lyras, Ukrainian string instruments.

"The blind banduryst", Trutovskyi, 1862
“The blind banduryst”, Trutovskyi, 1862

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They were the people who created, remembered and sung Ukrainian songs and dumas.

Then, in the 1930, the Soviet government gathered them all together under the pretext of a “congress” and shot them all.

Finding sources about this is nontrivial. Here the fourth paragraph, but I’m not sure how reliable the website is. And here’s the often-quoted fragment from Shostakovich’s Testimony:

I am not a historian. I could tell many tragic tales and cite many examples, but I won’t do that. I will tell about one incident, only one. It’s a horrible story and every time I think of it I feel fear. I don’t even want to remember it.

Since time immemorial, folk singers have wondered along the roads of Ukraine. They’re called “lirniki” and “banduristy” there. They were almost blind men—why that is so is another question that I won’t go into, but briefly, it’s traditional. The point is, they were always blind and defenseless people, but no one ever touched or hurt them. Hurting a blind man—what could be more dishonorable?

And then in the mid thirties the First All-Ukrainian Congress of Lirniki and Banduristy was announced, and all the folk singers had to gather and discuss what to do in the future. ‘Life is better, life is merrier,’ Stalin has said. The blind men believed it. They came to the congress from all over Ukraine, from tiny, forgotten villages. There were several hundred of them at the congress, they say. It was a living museum, the country’s living history. All its songs, all its music and poetry. And

they were almost all shot, almost all of those poor blind men killed.

Why was it done? Why the sadism — killing the blind? Just like that, so that they wouldn’t get underfoot. Mighty deeds were being done there, complete collectivization was under way, they had destroyed kulaks as a class, and here were these blind men, walking around singing songs of dubious content. The songs weren’t approved by the censors. And what kind of censorship can you have with blind men? You can’t hand a blind man a corrected and approved text and you can’t write him an order either.

You have to tell him everything orally. That takes too long. And you can’t file away a piece of paper, and there’s no time anyway. Collectivization. Mechanization. It was easier to shoot them. And so they did.

Back to the poem.

An old kobzar sits near the side of the Maidan. He is old and feels he doesn’t have much time left, and asks to be led to the other side. Before his death, he wishes for peace and quiet. He rememebers — he wasn’t blind his whole life, apparently, — that on the other side there’s a field. The Maidan, while chaotic and hectic, means a lot to him. He rembers everything, his youth, his good and bad deeds (“here I’ve been strong and here I’ve been vile”), his wife(?). Everything revolved around the Maidan, and as a blind person he is very attached to it. He keeps asking to be let to the other side, but no one seems to hear him. At the end, he attempts to do it by himself. He starts walking, but doesn’t get to the other side, and falls dead in the middle of the square. Meanwhile, the town has grown quite a lot in the past few decades, and there’s no field at the other side — his attempt was futile from the beginning.

I have quite a lot of memories connected with this poem, and with the absolutely legendary romance version of the poem translated to Russian. It will always have a very special place in my heart.

I need to play with poetry much more often, it’s about as enjoyable as drawing. I keep forgetting about both.

(Y)


  1. Blind street musicians playing the Kobza, a Ukrainian folk music instrument, for our purposes kobzar=lirnyk=banduryst ↩︎

  2. “shelves” almost makes me cry, but the third line is perfect, haven’t found any other normal rhyme…. ↩︎

  3. For now “city square”; More about the connotations of this word, as I see them, further down ↩︎

  4. Formerly “we’ve been together” but this would imply they are /still/ together ↩︎

  5. sounds too much like passive and therefore weird, but whatever ↩︎

  6. Adding meaning that was not there, but “Maidan” is hard to rhyme with anything. I also can see something like “Where drunken clouds are floating in the trees” ↩︎

  7. Four identical rhymes – it’s a feature! increasing the DRAMA and stuff ↩︎

26 Mar 2017

Da chto vy /voobsche/ znajete pro metamodernism?

141 words, ~0 min read

Laaaadies and gentlemen,

дамы и господа

http://reasonsforli.win/

Someday this may become something useful. It actually started as something useful. Like a website where you go and find positivity and stuff

I’m surprised that I’m surprised that it descended into madness pretty fast

Anyway, it’s random images from my old “saved images” and random quotes from my quotes file (without some of the more bad/uninteresting ones).

Oh, and as a bonus to the readers of this blog, here’s the old design, with the pictures and text absolutely separated.

Залипаю уже минут 20

Enjoy?

O, да, если уже началась такая пьянка,

http://sparksara.net

Тупо тырит ссылки с моей вики, у которых оценка >=6, рендомно выводит.

EDIT 1: а еще можно вот так: http://reasonsforli.win/glitch.php

Glitch + фразочки из исходника файлика, без фильтра на счет “позитивности”/”оптимистичности”/”интересности”.

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Mildly related:

http://www.nietzschefamilycircus.com/

http://timeisaflatcircus.tumblr.com/

08 Mar 2017

who journeyed to Amsterdam, who died in Amsterdam, who came back to Amsterdam & waited in vain

387 words, ~1 min read

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Now playing: Dans le Port d’Amsterdam (ну очевидно же.)

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21 год. Господи, господи, господи.

Два лейтмотива мыслей тут: 1) А давай организовывать свою собственную жизнь по пятилеткам! 2) десятилетие с 20 по 30 это то время, когда мозги наиболее гибкие.

А еще,

“My goal is not to wake up at 40 with the bitter realization that I’ve wasted my life in a job I hate because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens” (c) самый гениальный мультик в истории человечества.

Десятилетие свободы при относительном (в моем случае — почти полном) отсутствии обязанностей.

Итак.

О важности этого десятилетия отличшейше написано на Art of Manliness (ч.1 и ч.2, особенно последняя). В этом возрасте мозги делают вторую и последнюю попытку решить, что нужно для счастья и успешной жизни, убирая лишние связи в мозгах. Чтó именно есть лишним — решается на основе той жизни, которая происходит вот конкретно в этот период. Изменения потом возможны, конечно, но даются ощутимо сложнее.

Basically, what this means is that the education, experiences, and relationships you choose to pursue in your twenties will determine the course of your brain’s synaptic pruning process.

This final development of your brain is akin to getting a wiring upgrade – after it’s completed, the prefrontal cortex will run faster and more efficiently. But what you gain in speed, you lose in flexibility.

Соответственно критически важно положить дорогу изначально в “правильном” направлении. А еще, из оперы “неиробиология для чайников”, neurons that fire together wire together (see Neuroplasticity). Еще, оказывается, Metaplasticity тоже существует: “The idea is that the synapse’s previous history of activity determines its current plasticity”.

Your twenties are in fact the perfect time for adventure and exploration, but the experiences you choose should have an element of intentionality.

И именно об intentionality я хочу сегодня думать. Или, еще лучше, создать (=комбинировать идеи из религии, поп-психологии, психологии, неиробиологии и теории систем) framework, который мне может в этом всем помочь, но об этом дело будет идти в отдельном длииииииннннном посте.

21-26 лет

Этот период хочу посвятить работе над:

  1. Ответственностью
  2. Силой воли
  3. Силе в общем, глобальном, широком знании этого слова. Использование данных мне ресурсов разного плана для изменения мира вокруг.

Конкретно планы на след. год:

  1. Искусственный интеллект
  2. Информ. безопасность
  3. Программирование – тупо писать код, как же я давно этого не делал, Господи.

Далі буде, over and out! (Y)

15 Feb 2017

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06 Jan 2017

2016-2017

304 words, ~1 min read

Сочельник.

К сожалению, уже не могу найти источник, кто найдет - буду благодарен!

Очень четко знаю, что сегодня буду листать отрывок “Книги Книг” Алексея Александрова про Классика, Янку и Лева, вероятно еще “Ночь перед Рождеством” Гоголя. Еще по традиции где-то там затесается “A Christmas Carol in Prose, Being a Ghost-Story of Christmas”. В этом же ассоциативном ряду “Вий” 1967 года, надо таки посмотреть его.

Нужно со всех сил не дать жизни скатиться в однообразие, нужно своими силами по-максимуму генерировать атмосферу. Религии, традиции, около-тоталитарные строи умеют это делать отлично, надо без особых комплексов оттуда черпать мысли. Сюди ж думки Костя Москальця про ритуали. (Останні три дні перечитую “Келію Чайної Троянди”, згадую мій 11 клас, повертаюсь до того стану душі. Ех.)

Некоторые книги стоит действительно перечитывать как способ focusing on what you want to grow.

И вообще, eсли праздника нет,то без этой жизни можно обойтись.

Итак.

Now playing: A fairytale of New York

“You were handsome!” “You were pretty
Queen of New York City”
When the band finished playing
They howled out for more
Sinatra was swinging
All the drunks, they were singing
We kissed on a corner
Then danced through the night

2016 был очередным невероятно интересным годом. Много чего понято, много чего пережитого (но не излишне много, далеко не такой треш как 2015), но, не особо много чего сделано. Воспринимаю его его как год около-паузы подготовки к намного более активному году.

(Любимое исполнение второй любимой рождественской песни).

А ще:

Нова радість стааа-ааа-лааа
Яка не буваа-лааа
Над вертепом зірка ясна
На весь світ засіяяяя-лаа.

І взагалі:

Але кожен по-своєму
Ми дійдем до Вифлеє-ее-мууу

Це мав бути пост про те, яким я хочу, щоб був 2017 рік, але хай це буде абстрактно-різдвяно-новорічним постом.

Вершини в снігу
Світяться навіть уночі
Різдво.
(Ватанабе Тацуо) 1

З Різдвом. Цей рік буде прекрасним.


  1. As quoted here in Russian; my translation. ↩︎

31 Dec 2016

Підсумки 2016

447 words, ~1 min read

Невже цьому 5 років, Боже мій…

Пишу ці рядки 31/12/2016, в Мюнхенському аеропорту за годинку до початку посадки.

UPD: Політ  Мюнхен->Варшава був дуже милим. В літаку крутять тихі джазові новорічні пісні через public announcement system, всі посміхаються, стюардеси ходять і роздають цукерки, пілот теж у явно чудовому настрої і дуже-дуже багато балакає ні про що. Чи не вперше за ці пару тижнів відчув ту саму атмосферу. До 2017 року менше ніж півдоби. Продовжую писати у аеропорту ім. Шопена у Варшаві у затишній кафешці

Now playing: “Нанэ цоха” та ця чудова пісня без відомої мені назви з “Табор уходит в небо”.
Досягнення року: почав напів-серйозно займатися здоров’ям, долаючи тонни бюрократичних перешкод
Подія року: 33C3, про це буде окремий пост!
Настрій року: Перечікування дощу, виход з мертвої петлі
Зустріч року: Я версії $дата-10 року народження
Геморой року: хай будуть ті самі бюрократичні перешкоди, а так відносно тихий рік без очевидних великих стресів
Країна року: Україна
Місто року: Фуртверк!
Слово року: Melancholy
Подорож року: Гамбург і ця надзвичайно довга дорога додому
Веб-сервіс року: http://pchr8.net (сам себе не похвалиш, …)
Колір року: #184e7b
Запах року: Арома-лампи, композиції “ясный ум” та масло ладану; приємний дим чергової інкарнації моєї воскової свічки після тушіння
Новина року: див. “Жах року”.

Оставь ее, баро, погубит она тебя и никто не сможет тебя спасти из беды, даже я не смогу. Оставь ее, баро, она же ведьма! 1

Книга року: Die Biographie über Steve Jobs; To kill a mockingbird; Wir Kinder from Bahnhof Zoo; Sophies Welt; The autobiography of Benjamin Franklin
Фільм року: “Табор уходит в небо”
Пісня року: Крематорий – Мусорный ветер; “Табор уходит в небо” Каспийского Груза;
Жах року: Trump&Brexit
Заклад року: JB @ München + столовка у Школі
Напій року: Чай — вкотре.
Їжа року: Заморожена піца; Kinder County; заморожені булочки, які zum Fertigbacken
Транспорт року: Benz Express, рейс Київ-Лейпциг-Київ
Бренд року:
Антилюдина року: так класно, що хвилин 5 думаю над цим. Можливо таки рухаюсь у правильному напрямку у житті
МріяЦіль на наступний рік: Закінчити КПІ, активно вчитись і вирішити, що мені потрібно в житті (в тому числі в плані магістратури). Отримувати нормальні оцінки, щоб спростити вибір магістратури. Знайти стимулюючу роботу.
Побажання собі на 2013 2014 2015 2016 2017 рік:
Хм. По-максимуму стабілізуватись, дуже-дуже класно спати, гарно харчуватися, тримати себе в найкращій можливій формі, займатися спортом, не давати моху рости і ставати теплим і затишним. Я дуже непогано собі уявляю, що саме робити, щоб прибрати туман з голови — ну от саме це все і робити. Почати активно creating value, мутити масштабність рівня 7-9 класу. Вчитися caring about things знову, чисто вольовим зусиллям цікавитися всім, поки воно не стане більш-менш звичкою.

(У)


  1. Табор уходит в небо (1976), стр. 4: текст, цитаты фильма, читать содержание, описание ↩︎

09 Dec 2016

Semantic Mediawiki for personal knowledge management, using templates and a custom userscript

1335 words, ~5 min read

Here I’ll try to document my current setup for links management, which is slowly starting to take form.

Как мы пришли к такой жизни

Since the social bookmarking site Delicious (old links page) is seriously falling apart (which is very sad, I liked it almost as much as I liked Google Reader) I started looking for other alternatives. For some time, I used WordPress LinkLibrary plugin until I felt the hard category system lacked flexibility (you can see on the “Links” page of this blog how cluttered and repetitive it is), I needed _tags _and more ways to organize the links and, possibly, the relationships between them.

Then for a very short time I set up a WordPress installation specifically for links. I was not the first one who attempted this (https://sebastiangreger.net/2014/01/own-your-data-part-1-bookmarks/ as an example), but it did not work out well for me.

As for the existing social bookmarking services, for example http://pinboard.in or http://historio.us/, I did not want to pay and wanted control of my data (thank God the export feature in Delicious worked more often than not, but I don’t want to risk it anymore).

As for the need to “share” it, I want to have access to it from various places and, since there’s nothing private, putting it in the cloud and putting a password on it sounds like an unneeded layer of complication. Lastly — who knows — maybe someone will actually get some use out of it.

Semantic Mediawiki

Mediawiki is the software Wikipedia runs on. Semantic Mediawiki is an open-source extension for it that adds the ability to store and query data on a whole another level.

Semantics means, basically, meaning. The difference between “60”, “60kg”, “My weight is 60kg.”

Traditionally, Mediawiki allows the pages to link to each other, but the exact nature of the connection is not clear, and you can’t use the connections much. Semantic Mediawiki allows to define additional data for every page, and allows to define relationships between pages. The data “Benjamin Franklin was born in the USA in 1706” suddenly becomes searchable, for example as “Give me the people born in America before 1800” and “Give me the list of countries where people named Ben were born”. A link “Benjamin Franklin -> Philadelphia” becomes “Benjamin Franklin was (BORN IN) Philadelphia”.

This is awesome.

After looking at it, I understood that I have immense power in my hands, and that I have no idea how to use it. As in, how to create an architecture that was both meaningful and easy to adhere to.

Seeing all this, I thought it would make sense to upgrade my “Link database” to something much more interconnected and useful, a personal knowledge management system.

And here it is.

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The system

Take this page.

Every page has 5 values:

  • l: The actual URI
  • t: the title
  • c: the complexity (how easy/hard is it to read; sometimes I just don’t want to think too much), 1 to 10
  • r: the rating, also 1 to 10
  • o: If it’s a page with only one link, around which the content of the page has been built. (As opposed to “Here are 5 links about X”)

Plus, of course, any additional text.

Properties can be set:

1) In the text itself, for example like this:

    [[l::https://plus.maths.org/content/os/issue53/features/hallucinations/index]]
    - [[t::Uncoiling the spiral: Maths and hallucinations.]]

2) Invisibly:

{{#set:
 o=true
 |c=8
}}

3) using the following nice template I’ve written:

http://www.pchr8.net/wiki/index.php?title=Template:B 

    [[l::{{{1}}}]] - [[t::{{{2}}}]]. 
    ----
    Complexity: [[c::{{{3|5}}}]]; Rating: [[r::{{{4|5}}}]]; Is only link: [[o::{{{5|true}}}]]
    
    
    {{#set:
     l={{{1}}}
     |t={{{2|1}}} <!-- If no title given, use URI as name -->
     |c={{{3|5}}} <!-- 5 as default value -->
     |r={{{4|5}}} <!-- 5 as default rating unless something else given
     |o={{{5|true}}} <!-- only link by default -->
    }}

which can be used like this:

https://www.fastcodesign.com/3043041/evidence/why-our-brains-love-high-ceilings
|Why our brains love high ceilings
|5
|7
}}

My main goal for this was that it should be fast, and fast for me. I can type the above much faster than I can multiple input boxes in a hypothetical GUI.

Then I decided to write some bad javascript to simplify it even more.

The bookmarklet/userscript

An actual bookmarklet would be definitely the next thing I'm doing, until then I'll be adding the pages manually.

But I wrote a small script (two years since I've used any Javascript, haha), to minimize the text above to just this:

https://www.fastcodesign.com/3043041/evidence/why-our-brains-love-high-ceilings
Why our brains love high ceilings
5
7

The (badbadbad) Javascript code is the following:

var lines = $('#wpTextbox1').val().split('\n');

for (i=0; i<5; i++) {
if (typeof lines[i] == 'undefined') {lines[i]='';}
}

if (!ValidURL(lines[0])) {alert(lines[0]+" doesn't look like a valid URL.")};
if (lines[1]=='') {lines[1]=lines[0]};
if (lines[2]=='') {lines[2]='5'};
if (lines[3]=='') {lines[3]='5'};

if (parseInt(lines[2]) > 10 || parseInt(lines[2])<0 || isNaN(lines[2])) {
alert(lines[2]+'is not a valid value, setting to default 5');
lines[2]='5';
}

if (parseInt(lines[3]) > 10 || parseInt(lines[3])<0 || isNaN(lines[3])) {
alert(lines[3]+'is not a valid value, setting to default 5');
lines[3]='5';
}

var text="{{B|\n"+lines[0]+"\n|"+lines[1]+"\n|"+lines[2]+"\n|"+lines[3];
if (lines[4]!='') text+="\n|"+lines[4];
text+="\n}}";

var field = document.getElementById('wpTextbox1');
var textArray = field.value.split("\n");
textArray.splice(0, 4);
textArray[0] = text;
field.value = textArray.join("\n");

function ValidURL(str) {
var pattern = new RegExp('^(https?:\\/\\/)?'+
'((([a-z\\d]([a-z\\d-]*[a-z\\d])*)\\.?)+[a-z]{2,}|'+
'((\\d{1,3}\\.){3}\\d{1,3}))'+
'(\\:\\d+)?(\\/[-a-z\\d%_.~+]*)*'+
'(\\?[;&a-z\\d%_.~+=-]*)?'+
'(\\#[-a-z\\d_]*)?$','i');
return pattern.test(str);
}

The minimized variant of the above now sits nice in my bookmarks bar, and is bound to a keypress in cvim. So I can fill just the URI, and it sets everything else to some default values and adds the Mediawiki template formatting.

TODO:

  1. Getting the page title automagically (see http://stackoverflow.com/questions/10793585/how-to-pick-the-title-of-a-remote-webpage), I'll need a PHP backend. It would be also interesting to check from the PHP if the IP making the request is currently logged in in my wiki, and get the title only then, to prevent abuse
  2. Making a bookmarklet which populates automatically most of the fields, like my old Delicious bookmarklet (sigh.)

Searching the wiki

The search in Semantic Mediawiki is explained pretty well here. Now I can do neat things like "Give me the pages in the Category 'To read' with complexity < 4". And lastly, categories can be inside other categories. If X is in category  A, which is a subcategory of B, it still shows up in searches for category B. (example) Pretty nice!

Knowledge Management

Things I want to learn or will probably need pretty often will have their own pages, like the Formulating Knowledge page. Simply because interacting with the material always helps much more than just reading it. Also I like that it will be represented in a way relevant for me, without unnecessary data and with additional material I think should be there.

For the link pages, there will be the link + very short summary (it has been working pretty well) + a couple of thoughts about it, + maybe relevant data or links to other pages.

TODO: Quotes + Move there my "To Read" / "To Listen to" lists. Also think of a better name for it.

Why?

Warum einfach, wenn es auch kompliziert geht? (A nice German phrase about avoiding the unbearable simplicity of being: "Why simple, when it can be complicated as well?")

On a serious note, I don't have any doubts that in the long run I'll be thankful for this system.

Firstly, I control all of this data. Feels good. Take that, capitalist ad-ridden surveillance corporations!

Secondly, working with a lot of information has always been something I do often and enjoy immensely, and it would make sense to start accumulating everything in one place. Every day I stumble upon a lot of material on the Internet, of very different nature, and with not-obvious connections between them. I have more interests than I can count.

Organizing everything like this so far looks to me the best alternative, and I'm reasonably certain it will work out. There's a lot that can be improved, and I think in a couple of moths it will morph into something awesome.

Finding ways to use all the accumulated data is a topic for another day.

(Y)


A couple of nice relevant inspiring places:

http://yourcmc.ru/wiki/  - in Russian, a person using Mediawiki as central hub for everything.

http://konigi.com/wiki/  - personal wiki, mostly design.

http://thingelstad.com/2012/bookmarking-with-semantic-mediawiki/ a much more advanced version of what I'm trying to do, also using Semantic Mediawiki. I should drop him a line :)

18 Nov 2016

Three tales about the Universe

1036 words, ~4 min read

Now playing: o/` эта осень еще сильнее грузит меня o/`

A couple of articles I especially liked the past week or so, which are too awesome not to share (and too awesome not to internalize by rephrasing them).

1. The Strange Inevitability of Evolution

A beautiful article about how Darwin’s theory of evolution, even after the synthesis with modern genetics, does not explain where does all the creativity around us come from (though explaining how the better survive).

As the biologist Hugo de Vries wrote in 1905, “natural selection may explain the survival of the fittest, but it cannot explain the arrival of the fittest.”

The problem is that individual traits are not encoded by individual genes but by gene circuits, and useful ones are much harder to stumble upon randomly.

Apparently, there are many possible variants to get the same result (which makes a certain trait easier to come across) and the various possibilities are interconnected (the example of a multi-dimensional field with paths is used). Which makes stumbling upon a certain trait/protein structure/RNA sequence not a random search, but a navigation through an interconnected space through quasi-neutral changes.

This suggests that evolvability, and the corollary of creativity or innovability, is a fundamental feature of complex networks like those found in biology.

These findings uncover a property of biological systems even deeper than the evolutionary processes that shape them

(emphasis mine).

And apparently only structures complex enough have this property, simpler ones tend to be rendered dysfunctional by the small changes needed.

These ideas suggest that evolvability and openness to innovation are features not just of life but of information itself. That is a view long championed by Schuster’s sometime collaborator, Nobel laureate chemist Manfred Eigen, who insists that Darwinian evolution is not merely the organizing principle of biology but a “law of physics,” an inevitable result of how information is organized in complex systems

The article is fascinating (and much better written then my short explanation here), and it reminds me a bit of the things I learned about systems theory.

The take-away message for me would be that another area that’s interesting to look at would be evolutionary algorithms and their possible uses, and in general that I can inspire myself from biology. Complex self-replicating self-healing systems would be fascinating to study/build. + Again, how interesting the Universe is, and what nice things can happen with radical paradigm shifts (seeing evolution as a result of an underlying principle of information itself).

2. Are you as old as you feel?

People in their 70s for one week lived in circumstances similar to their youth  (Marilyn Monroe and King, yay!) and at the end were much healthier and looked younger that the control group. + various ways to measure the biological age + the mind-body relationship.

So Langer began asking if subjective mental states could influence something as objective as the levels of blood sugar in patients with Type 2 diabetes. The 46 subjects in her study, all suffering from Type 2 diabetes, were asked to play computer games for 90 minutes. On their desk was a clock. They were asked to switch games every 15 minutes. The twist in the study was that for one-third of the subjects, the clock was ticking slower than real time, for one-third it was going faster, and for the last third, the clock was keeping real time.

“The question we were asking was would blood sugar level follow real or perceived time,” says Langer. “And the answer is perceived time.”

And that’s a bit about how the mind’s age can influence purely physical phenomena.

Most of us are slaves to our chronological age, behaving “age-appropriately.”

Terracciano and colleagues have found that subjective age correlates with certain physiological markers of aging, such as grip strength, walking speed, lung capacity, and even the levels of C-reactive protein in the blood, an indication of inflammation in the body. The younger you feel you are, the better are these indicators of age and health: You walk faster, have better grip strength and lung capacity, and less inflammation.

Message: chronological age seems just a number. + Я МОГУ ВСЁ

3. Is Physical Law an Alien Intelligence?

“Any sufficiently advanced technology is going to be indistinguishable from magic” –> “Alien life could be so advanced it becomes indistinguishable from physics.”

Presumably life doesn’t have to be made of atoms and molecules, but could be assembled from any set of building blocks with the requisite complexity. If so, a civilization could then transcribe itself and its entire physical realm into new forms. Indeed, perhaps our universe is one of the new forms into which some other civilization transcribed its world.

Also the article touches dark matter and it’s unprovable internal complexity, the mysterious expansion suddenly started 5 billion years ago, and the ways a hypothetical life could transcribe itself in the physical laws we have evolved to find unchangeable.

In other words, life might not just be in the equations. It might be the equations.

Message: Pretty interesting how physics -> technology -> magic -> physics, when it gets too complex to comprehend it at something unnatural. As a bonus, here’s a small little poem by Lorca.

As another bonus, here’s a fascinating account on how smileys/emoticons were born from the same awesome magazine. We have to thank people with autistic traits trying to convey emotions to each other. (Traits which, apparently, are needed for success in programming/engineering, which means I’m on the right track.)

It would be interesting to write an essay/short story on how modifying the available emoticons for a couple of generations could limit the emotions people are able to express and maybe later, to feel. Basically shaping the language to change the things possible to convey, which in turn would shape the minds of the people subjected to that language. (Hello, Orwell). But actually it’s that age-old problem of the influence of language on world-view.

La lumaca sospira \
e stordita s’allontana \
tutta confusa \
circa l’eternità. “Il sentiero \
non ha fine”, esclama. \
“Forse di qui \
si arriva alle stelle. \
Ma questa gran pigrizia \
mi impedirà di giungerci. \
E’ bene non pensarci più”. (Y)

18 Oct 2016

Программированиие + пассивный доход + очередной пост о том, что делать со своей жизнью

1103 words, ~4 min read

Нехарактерно длинный постик о двух идея для веб-приложений, которыми мне бы хотелось заняться, и ресурсы/мысли на тему создания пассивного дохода.

Хочу ближайшие несколько месяцев заняться изучением личных финансов (и финансов вообще), менеджмента проектов и источников пассивного дохода.

Я отлично умею создавать идеи но мне не хватает усидчивости с этим что-то делать, а еще мне нужен пассивный доход.

The plan

Делаю за этот год N маленких проектиков, которые бросаю в Интернет и с которых мне будут капать какая-то мелочь по рекламе, параллельно изучая парочку технологий для этого.

Концентрироваться буду на около-веб-разработке т.к. это мне даст те фоновые знания, которые мне необходмы для около-информационной-безопасности

И еще мне нужно КОДИТЬ, ПИСАТЬ КОД, для себя, ибо я это почти  перестал делать с момента поступления в КПИ.

Сегодня листая мою чудесную книгу по общей лингвистике и тыкая в странички, сгенерировались следующие две идеи для веб-приложений, которые могут быть интересны кому-то кроме меня

1) Генератор идей

Рабочее название — SparkSara.

— даст мне возможность более формально изучить тему создания идей и творчества и попытаться формализировать/алгоритмизировать существующие темы (от “шапок” до матрицы с потоком сознания — об этом много написано текста и книг но НЕ кода и НЕ веб-приложений, которыми просто пользоваться.)

— Классика уровня “7 методов, из которых последние 3 платные” или “в бесплатной версии можешь вставлять только 3 слова со стороны матрицы, иначе без ограничений”

— Реклама

— Потенциально адски полезная и могущая помочь людям штука

— Могу спокойно расширить и публиковать там блог на эту тему. В перспективе — даже написать книгу, просто потому что это круто xD

2) “На кого похоже стиль письма”

Рабочее название — WriteLikeLennon, а там придумаю что-то адекватнее.

— Человек вставляет свой акк в ВК/Фб/Тви или тупо текст, программма сообщает, на кого из писателей/поэтов/звёзд/… похоже твой стиль написания.

— Почти безконечное кол-во для дополнения текстов/тестов/людей (=”На кого из политиков ХХ века похож твой стиль письма”

— В перспективе алгоритмы анализа языка очень сложные и невероятно интересные, но думаю результаты можно получитть даже смотря на кол-во слов-паразитов, пунктуации, длины/сложности предложений и т.п. Но тут очень много пространства для развития. Ну и думаю тупо рендомно тоже можно xD

— Много чему можно научитсья в процессе

— Пересечение айти и лингвистики

— Аудитория основная — 10-17 лет и особо одаренные 17+ посетители всяких около-фан-групп ВК, где и будет рекламироваться

— Они же будут это шарить на свои странички ВК, можно на крайняк немного проплатить рекламу в соотв сообществах

— Классный дизайн уровня “Анализируется пунктуация… 0…50…100%, анализируется выбор слов…” и такими красивыми прогресс-барами 😆

Это все ЛИЧНО МНЕ адски интересно, и мб как минимум первое будет полезно людям. А еще мне нужна ПРАКТИКА, мать вашу

А, ну и в перспективе — использовать подобные хрени для изучения каких-то технологий, это 1) плюсик в резюме “смотрите у меня свои проекты и я занимаюсь программированием и от души а не только в рамках универа”, 2) около-практика и ощущение около-смысла, 3) наберется 5-10 таких и мб будет капать сколь-нибудь приличный околоавтоматизированный доход, но очевидно не он главное.

Пассивный доход

Несколько ресурсов на тему:

Ask HN: Passive income ideas

  1.  Build an audience
  2. Hard to scale once it grows
    1. Sell information as a product (Ebooks?)
    2. “Like you, I can code confidently so during my morning commute I would read books about trading and economics. In the evening I would play with bits of code interfacing with broker API’s. Within 3 months I had a working bot that automatically traded away as I slept and went about my day job (passive enough for you?). Fast forward 6 months with a couple of hours coding a week refining my algorithms, my bots earned me more than double what I made in my day job that whole year.”
  3. “Pick an app on the iPhone that is currently selling well and you feel you could build, then make a competing app. It’s boring, but it works and it’s a good confidence builder.”
  4. “Find a very boring problem that you can automate into a product that needs minimal support. By “very boring” I mean: necessary for a certain line of business and not well addressed by current competitors and not inherently interesting to work on and full of ugly gotchas and corner cases. In general, solutions to these problems will be very profitable because they represent untapped markets. The only difficulties are: finding a problem sufficiently boring, and how much of it you can tolerate before it crushes your soul.”
  5. “One way is to write ebooks and sell them on Amazon. If you write things that don’t get dated, there is no further work on your part, Amazon just deposits money in your account. It’s highly unlikely you’d make $1000/mo on a single ebook, but if you write several, the trickle from each adds up.”

Top ways for a web programmer to buid passive income streams

  1. Affiliate Marketing (~Adsense)
  2. Run a community, forum, …
  3. Sell WordPress (or other) plugins, themes.
  4. Content Aggregation
Scraping data from various sources to re-organize, analyze or present in a better format.</p> 
  * News in various niches
  * Trading data
  * Social feeds (Facebook/Twitter/Instagr<wbr />am)
  * I could do nice graphics w/ Processing and make it interesting in other ways! (TODO: Learn R or anything for data mining and/or analysis)
  1. Write a book and sell it on Amazon and forget about it
  2. Write an eBook, sell it on the blog
  3. Focus on creating something people need rather than on passive income. Something that solves a real problem.
  4. Niche sites — dedicated to something small, exclusively passive income ideas, for example

5 steps to $5000 a month— step-by-step guide with main takeaways and tips from a firm which did exactly that.

Also to note

  • It would be fascinating to intersect Systems Theory with all this — solving problems on other levels/paradigms, creating my own niches, etc. Definitely need to think this over.
  • And again, CREATING MY OWN NICHES
  • А еще, т.к. круг моих интересов необычайно широк, а программирование дает мне возможность решать очень многие проблемы, мне стоит по-максимуму интересоваться проблемами в этих областях и думать, что я могу с этим сделать. Я и так постоянно учу новые для себя области знания — несколько недель читать про какую-то область, потом немного поболтать с людьми, а потом сотворить что-то, что способно облегчить жизнь всем, для лично меня отлично бы сработало. Пища для моей креативности + потребности в новом + желания контактировать с людьми.
  • Services VS products
  • Marketing research, promoting, analysis
  • Apparently, even something like this earns 100$/month
  • Really think outside the box — the Million Dollar Homepage as example of this
  • Network, build a following.

Books to read:

  • Rework or Getting Real by 37signals
  • Something about market research
  • Something about project management
  • Something about idea management